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The Entity And Its Search

You always mention, that when we do this investigation we shouldn't have a subtle agenda, not to do it in order to get rid of something etc.

Dear Rupert,

You always mention, that when we do this investigation we shouldn’t have a subtle agenda, not to do it in order to get rid of something etc. I don’t see how this is possible, especially if the mind knows it shouldn’t do something it will invariably do it.

I mean, I do this investigation in order to get ‘rid of something’, get rid of this illusion, this sense of a separate ‘me’, get rid of the connected suffering and despair, get rid of the whole thing. There is always an agenda, even if it is a very very subtle one.

Thank you so much for all your help and kindness

Many warm greetings from a beautiful moonlit night here in Switzerland

Peter

 

Dear Peter,

If the separate ‘I’ is trying to achieve something for itself, whether that something is worldly or spiritual, it will by definition strengthen itself.

It is only a separate ‘I’ that would want to get rid of the separate ‘I.’

The separate ‘I’ is itself the seeking that veils happiness. Seeking is not what the ‘I’ does. It is what it is.

Sooner or later we come to question this seeking itself, the ‘trying to get rid of something,’ rather than simply seeking finer and finer objects.

Rather than trying to get rid of it, we resolve to find it and have a good look at what it, the seeking entity, really is. And, when we try to find it, we cannot….how could one get rid of a non-existent entity?

In other words, seeking the end of suffering, trying to get rid of it, first presumes the real existence of the suffering entity, and with that belief, the entity and its suffering is inevitably perpetuated.

In other words, as long as the separate ‘I’ is considered to be real it is inevitable that we will be trying to get rid of it. It is a vicious circle, the entity and its search for the end of suffering, keep themselves going ad infinitum.

At some stage, usually through investigation, that entity is found to be non-existent. At this stage its search and suffering may not end immediately, but they begin to wind down.

However, you are right in saying that seeking is very subtle, much more subtle than most of us realise. The sort of sensitivity that is required to detect these finer layers of seeking is hard to describe via email. It is a loving and contemplative approach which at some stage goes further than the reach of the rational mind and uncovers deeper feelings of separation that reside in the body.

With warm regards,

Rupert