Dear Rupert,
Thoughts are not my enemy, this is understood. Like all functions, they are a tool. What I am talking about is the ‘I’ thought and the ‘chatter’. The experience here now is that a sentence will start and then end in the middle. Almost constantly this is witnessed. This automatic dropping off of sentences seems to be due to lack of interest. They are of the ‘me’ variety most of the time and offer no value. If thoughts are used to communicate, as is happening in this email, they happen automatically and effortlessly and are forgotten quickly. Would appreciate your commenting on this.
Love,
Toni
Dear Toni,
Yes, once the ‘me’ has been seen to be non-existent, thoughts that revolve around it drop away, gradually in most cases. As you say, we get half-way through the sentence and it just runs out of fuel.
In time, the noticing and the dropping happen sooner and sooner. At some point we become sensitive to the impulse at the level of feelings from which the ‘I’ thought is born. As the discomfort of this feeling is neutralised in our allowing or welcoming, there is less and less need to generate ‘me’-related thoughts in order to escape from or avoid it. It is just seen as a neutral sensation.
In time, these neutral feelings also subside, because without the ‘me’ story attached to them they have no reason to be. In this way the ‘me’ thought and its deeper root, the ‘me’ feeling, simply die of neglect. The thoughts that remain are practical, celebratory, investigative, creative and, as you say, communicative.
With love,
Rupert
