Dear Rupert,
I have listened and attempted to follow what you say. I kind of see that things just happen and Awareness is, without anything I do and that if I identify with this Consciousness Presence and then see what it Is (nothing like a mirror but also everything) then I am also nothing yet then everything is without any centre. Yet this separate self 'I' lingers like a large tumour in the forehead that is the centre. Is there a particular question or practice that ultimately worked to end this illusion for you or is it like the other non-dualists say and one just waits for grace to alight while walking or shopping!
Thanks,
Jeff
Dear Jeff,
It is both!
If the sense of being a separate entity lingers then question that apparently separate self which seems to be at the centre of all experience. It is in most cases necessary to question the separate self deeply in order to discover that it is entirely non-existent.
The noticing of the sense of a separate self, the desire to explore one's experience and questioning that very self are all expressions of grace. In other words don't dictate that grace should only come in the form of one blinding, timeless moment of understanding but see rather that it often comes in the form of the desire to explore one's real nature.
In other words, you do not have to wait for grace to take place - it has already taken place and is taking place in you. You have been given an interest in your true nature - that is the most valuable thing you could have ever been given.
That is grace.
Say 'Yes' to the gift you have been given and follow it. The desire to follow it is also grace.
With kind regards,
Rupert